Hey blog readers, happy Sunday!
Before I get into the blog I know I promised you a harassment blog and it’s obvious that I’m not going to post it today. I want to say that I wrote that blog in the wrong light for me to feel okay with it being published. It was written to tear someone down and that wasn’t supposed to be my intention, so I’m going to re-write it and eventually I will post it. Thank you for your patience.
*Update: The Harassment blog
may end up being published but to be honest everything’s a little bit better right now so we’ll see how things progress before I post that.
Now I want to plug an amazing singer next, her name is Cecilia. If you haven’t listened to her please do, she’s amazing. Her voice is beautiful and soulful and the whole reason I began to sing. I love her first album “Voice of the Feminine Spirit”. It is still my favorite album of hers. Please go check her out :)
On another note I want to talk about the privacy policy I’ve instilled on this blog. It’s pretty simple: For privacy reasons I don’t put the names of people I’m fighting with, and/or dislike. I just think that doing that is rude and disrespectful.
However, I do have a 100% honesty policy laid down for this blog. Without names I will be honest about what’s going on and how I feel about it. That’s a promise because if you all are going to take the time to read this blog then I should take the time to tell the truth. If you don’t like it then I wouldn’t suggest reading this blog.
Now to the real reason for this blog- Two weeks ago I posted this paragraph “
I also made the executive decision to delete a few people from my life. Their negative outlook on myself and my relationship are ridiculous. They thought they knew everything about me and who I am, but they didn’t, and I didn’t need to be upset by them everyday so they’re gone, and I feel free :)”
I am really shocked by how much that single paragraph (that I forgot I even wrote) has affected these people. I don’t know if it was because I wrote it on the blog, or they didn’t expect it but apparently they were very upset and I realize I didn’t explain why I did it.
First off, let’s get some background information down for those of you who are out of the loop:
The girl that I deleted I’ve known since 7th grade. I remember sitting in class and giving her a hug when she and her (now ex) broke up. I remember being proud of her when she was voted into our class’s Leadership program. I remember watching her dance in assemblies and being in awe at the grace that she portrayed.
The boy and I met our Freshman year when he was dating my best friend. We got closer and obviously things progressed. Even after we ended we were still friends. He’s got a dry sense of humor, but he’s a good person. It may take him a while but when he lets you in he really shows you who he is. He’s funny, smart and the best person to have your back.
About Why I deleted certain people from my life
To be honest I’m going to miss them, but they’ve made it clear that I’m not their choice for Josh’s girlfriend so I’ve just decided it would be better to get rid of them. I don’t want to always be thinking about what they think rather than who they are.
I didn’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings, but I really need to do this for me. We didn’t talk much before I deleted them, and we weren’t going to anyways, but it still sucks that it had to end on such a bad note.
Josh and this couple are still friends (and have been for
years!) but just because the three of us aren’t friends doesn’t mean that Josh’s friendships with them will be affected.
Anyways, I just wanted to write this all out there just to put my thoughts ad reasons into words. I didn’t delete them to be a vindictive bitch, I did it because I was tired of being told I wasn’t good enough.
I’ll be blogging a bit more this week since I don’t really work, but I don’t know for sure what days. Have a great week everyone!
Lots of love,
Kristen
